I’ve decided that for this blog’s monthly wrap-up that I would have a word for each month starting with the letter of the month, this month’s word is “joyful” (next month is “faithful”).
I had a hard time being joyful this month, I found myself feeling really down and lonely a lot, I think it’s mostly the dreary weather that is getting to me, but I’ve been trying my best.
- The teens from my congregation went to a winter retreat, it was beautiful weather and the lessons were amazing. The theme was 2020 Vision (I think everyone there was waiting for 2020 to name it that, haha). It was really good because the lessons were about our focus and what we focus on and what we should focus on in 2020.
- I started studying the Bible with someone and it’s been really good so far! I hope they become a Christian soon because their heart is in the right place. ❤
- We hosted a ladies’ day at our congregation and I met some wonderful sisters in Christ as well as heard some really convicting lessons. There was one about gossip, and I’m pretty sure most people apologized to all their friends after that one (my friends and I sure did).
- Stay focused. This month I’ve really struggled with feeling unneeded or out of place, but I find that every time I’m feeling really discouraged or unloved that I am not focusing on God and the Bible like I should be. My Lord is everything to me but sometimes I trick myself into thinking that I don’t need to be devoting so much time to worshipping Him or studying His word, but when I don’t, I leave so much more time to devote to anxiety and discouragement.
It’s like my camera when I’m taking pictures, sometimes it gets out of focus and I have to readjust the aperture and IOS, and as a “photographer” (it’s just a hobby right now), I have to remember to be mindful of what I’m focusing on and I need to do that in my daily life with God or else everything will be blurry.
- Force yourself out there. This one is something I come back to probably every week if not every day. One of my biggest fears is rejection, and my flawed logic is that if I don’t put myself out there, I can’t be rejected because I never gave people a chance to reject me. This is obviously a terrible mindset and one I am struggling to get out of, but I know I am making progress, it’s small, but I’m getting better.
Jesus was rejected by the very people he made and came to save (John 1:11-12), and yet that never stopped Him from reaching out and loving people, it never silenced His teachings.
I guess those would be the two biggest lessons I’ve learned/contemplated this month, now it’s your turn.
How was your month?
What did you learn?